On Tuesday February 7th I had my follow up visit from my miscarriage. I originally thought I was just going in doing some quick blood work and then heading out. That was not the case. It wasn't anything bad, but I had an actually appointment and I was looking a hot mess. Dry shampoo and all. I mean they've seen worse obviously, but just not what I expected.
Anyway, I went in and they did my weigh first and I have LOST weight!! whoop whoop! I am weighing less now than I did before I got pregnant this second time and I am only a few pounds away from my pre-pregnancy weight with Lakelyn! So, I will take that!
They did my blood pressure and made me pee in a cup.. like always. Blood pressure was good 113/76 and he said the pregnancy tests they do there came back negative. Which I wasn't sure if it would or not because I was still doing tests at home that were giving me faint lines. I guess their tests aren't as sensitive as the stores.
He came in and said everything was negative and we were good to go if we wanted to try again! He did give me a couple of options if I was interested. The first one was to get started on progesterone again as soon as I get pregnant. I did this with Lakelyn, but there was never a reason that showed I had to we just did it as a "just in case". I told him I thought about this myself and definitely wanted to do that. He did reassure me that progesterone didn't have anything to do with it. I knew this because the baby stopped growing at 9 weeks and I stopped taking it with Lakelyn at 8-9 weeks. So I didn't feel it had much to do with it, but i'd still like to feel like i'm doing everything I can.
Next, he offered me clomid. This is a fertility drug that helps women that have issues with ovulation. They either do not ovulate at all or ovulate late in their cycle. I did ovulate late with the last pregnancy which I knew. I can feel when I ovulate. So this was mainly to have me ovulate earlier and stronger and build up my hormones more. Not that I really needed it, but it wouldn't hurt if I wanted to try it. I didn't really want to try it, but told him he could send it in and if we decided to keep trying and nothing happens after a few months then I would try it. This medication can increase your chance of twins by 5%... I can barely keep up with one, much less two!
Anyway, that was really it. It was quick and painless. I have been doing pretty well with accepting the miscarriage. I won't lie pregnancy announcements still sting a bit and make me miss my baby, but it will get better. I still think often that I should be finding out the gender right now, deciding on a name, getting a nursery ready, and have a nice belly growing. It hurts and it makes me sad, but what can I do about it? Nothing, so I stay strong until we meet again!
As far as us trying again... I don't know. Some days I want to and some days I want to wait a little longer. Lakelyn took a long time and I get scared since this miscarriage the next one will take a long time too.